Of course, I immediately was like, "Yeah! That's good stuff," and then the more that I thought about it I started to think of how it applied to my life. Then, I started to defend myself a little. My thoughts turned to, "I agree with all that and I put myself in good positions and my intentions are good and blah blah blah..." I quickly realized something about myself, and I must say it was not an easy realization- I have great intentions, however, I don't always put myself in situations that help me reach those good intentions. When it comes to the black and white stuff, I'm pretty solid, however, I found myself complaining about certain things and expecting those things to change based on the other person or the circumstance instead of taking things into my own hands and changing my position.
Realizing all of this came pretty quickly but the putting it into action did not. I found that we as people become very comfortable with certain situations we put ourselves in, even if they are not the best for reaching our good intentions. I was comfortable with my complaining and putting all the blame on someone else and continuing to think things would change when they obviously would not, I would have sat in that pity party forever because I was comfortable there. But, where I was meant that I was experiencing no growth, no movement forward. Growth rarely happens in the comfortable.
So, I made a choice to get uncomfortable and change my position, reach my good intentions, and grow a little. I'm not going to lie, it was and is still a little uncomfortable but that's okay. I know that I am growing and changing and putting myself into positions that are going to help me and the other people in my life.
As I sit here and write this, I am reminded of Ephesians 3:20 where the Lord promises to do immeasurably more than we could ever hope or imagine. What this means to me in this situation is this- I am uncomfortable but I am growing and He is doing immeasurably more in my life and that immeasurably more is worth the small amount of discomfort and most definitely worth the growth that I am experiencing.
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." -Ephesians 3:20
