...and to the ends of the earth.

Anyone that knows me or has talked to me for longer than five minutes knows that I am a scaredy-cat. I am scared of the dark, bad weather, being alone, my shadow, etc. Those things I listed are minor, like very simple, everyday things in life. You can imagine my fear of being away from my family for an extended period of time or flying halfway around the world. For a few years now, God has been calling me to face those fears and get involved in world missions and for a few years now, I have given him excuse after excuse. I have used softball taking up my summer as an excuse or not having the time or money to do what He has asked of me. My silly, incapable mind forgets that my God isn't limited by time or money and each time I have remembered this, I try to stifle the thought and push it to the back of my mind. I also often think that God doesn't want to use me in the way to better His kingdom. Clearly, I think too much and God wants me to stop it and just do what He has asked. 


So, with that in mind- less thinking, more acting- I am giving in. My brother has been to Romania for the past three summers on mission trips and upon returning every year, he asks me if I want to go with him the next summer. Each year I give him the shrug and a half-hearted "maybe." This year, however, I have told him yes, I want to go. I am scared out of my daggum mind but I am also SO dang excited about what God has planned for the children of Romania that we will work with and what God has planned for ME through this trip. There will be much more to come about this as the summer gets closer! :) 


Part of what helped me to make this decision was the sermon at church this past week. I attend Newspring Church and this past Sunday, the sermon was titled, "It's Not About Me." Harsh? Yes. True? Yes. The world is a huge place, and when I think about my size in comparison to the size of the world it is kind of a reality check. I am small, like really small. I am small enough that I shouldn't matter, but, God saw me (and you) as worth it, worth saving, worth mattering and He has an incredible plan to make life matter on a whole other level (Ephesians 3:20). Thank goodness I serve a God that amazing.

"Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit." -Matthew 28:19